Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Hoarding Anyone?

Hoarding 
Wake Up to Live with Desiree Leigh
Oh my gawd. I just came to the realization that I am a hoarder of books. I was here in my office doing some pacing, which I seem to do when I want to memorize things, and at the same time I was observing my bookshelves. I starting looking at some of the books that I haven't read. Yikes! There seemed to be so many of them. Too many of them.

You may know what I mean. You buy a great book knowing that you want to read it. Over time you buy more great books. "Well", you say, "It's a new release. It's hot off the shelf. I love the author. I just have to have it!" Before you know it, you now have 10 maybe 20 or more of them that are still crying out for your attention; collecting dust from getting neglected in the corner. But the thing is, you seem to never get to it because you still have about five plus more books in front of that book that you're already committed to. So when are you ever going to get to the new one (or should I say the old one ;) They just seem to keep piling up.

Wow. I mean I knew I did this but I never really acknowledged it. I kept thinking, "I'll just keep some for a rainy day." Or, "I'll always have variety. A bit of spice once in a while is nice." But is it? I mean, when you really think about it, especially when you seem to be running out of shelving space, you start placing books on the floor. Then there's the living room. And how about the bedroom. I guess eventually they can go in the basement or the shed, but I haven't got to that point and hopes that I never will. I keep saying, "One day I'll read them. Just after I finish this one." But then there's another new one to buy. When does this craziness of hoarding stop? And even all the while I read avidly, I just can't keep up to the amount I'm buying. Kind of makes you feel full!

I am so glad I finally acknowledged this behaviour. But I didn't stop there. I asked some pretty deep questions about what reasons were behind my actions. And where else do I act out this kind of behaviour. When you have a particular behaviour in one area of your life, you may find out that it bleeds into another area of your life. Perhaps in my shopping? How about eating? Any money issues? Wow, this is so cool! The possibilities are endless. This is something real good. I love addressing new hidden beliefs lurking beneath the surface of my reality. Because NOW I can change it. This is awakening in the works!

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