The Divine Message that Saved My Life

 

A miracle happened to me in 2011, and it saved my life. If I wasn’t practicing meditation and receiving messages already, I probably wouldn’t have trusted my gut. But then again, I shouldn’t say that because all my life, I’ve experienced various divine interventions and a knowing of who we truly are, but because I grew up with a lot of trauma – chronic childhood abuse, sexual abuse as a child, sexual assaults as a teen, and further domestic violence, I rebelled, and angrily, I turned away from It - away from my higher energy source that lovingly wanted to guide me.

I do not deny that unawake people experience miracles or divine interventions that literally shock them into enlightenment. I recently read a horrific story about Isira who lives in Australia. She first awakened while she was being raped. During the time she experienced being raped, beaten, and almost murdered she emanated pure love and compassion which, she believes, caused an awakening in her abuser, who was moved to stop the brutality. This saved her life. At the age of 18, Isira vowed to dedicate her life to the awakening of humanity. She is now an awakened spiritual teacher. Such an amazing story!

Anyway, I started practicing meditation in 2006 and the practice has supported me in many life’s decisions. Here is one example. I received a breast augmentation in September 2005. It was a low period in my life, and I didn’t yet start my healing journey. You can read about my healing journey in my first published book, Healing Worthlessness: Coming into Self-Love as aTrauma Survivor.

I ended up getting really sick in mid 2009. That was about 4 years after the breast implants. I had this nagging sore throat, swollen lymph nodes in my neck, armpits, and groin, a persistent mild fever, some sweating, and persistent fatigue. These symptoms came on gradually over the course of several months and progressively got worse over time. My youngest son was heading to Toronto to attend U of T at the time. As the symptoms got worse, I remember a time when I had to stop my vehicle on the side of the road to rest or have a brief nap because I’d experience overwhelming feelings of weakness and fatigue, and I was actually afraid that I was going to fall asleep at the wheel while driving. It’s not like I had to drive far to get to the grocery store when I lived in the city of West Van. My body also started to feel like cement and my movements became slow. I was an active person, exercising at the gym daily before driving the kids to school, jogging, and kayaking, and then wham, this happened.

I went from one doctor to the next trying to find out what I had, but none of them could find anything wrong with me. They considered that it could be Lyme’s disease, but it didn’t fit the symptoms and they couldn’t find the bullseye. One doctor finally diagnosed me with chronic fatigue syndrome even though he was very skeptical about saying it. How do I know that? Because he said so. I asked him about the implants suggesting that perhaps it was this that was causing the symptoms, but he was adamant that my symptoms had absolutely nothing to do with the implants! He wasn’t the only doctor that said this. So, I didn’t do anything.

Another few months had passed. I continued on my path of trying many different alternative therapies, such as acupuncture, colon therapy, and homeopathy. I even joined a yoga teacher training program thinking that this just may get me into a state of balance or homeostasis, but nothing seemed to help.

Anyway, one afternoon when I finished my meditation practice at home, I leapt out of bed and said to myself, “It’s the implants.” I was absolutely certain it was the implants. I shared this with some friends of mine, and they asked me how I knew? I said, I just knew. I then got on the internet and started researching the topic, and within two weeks after the revelation, which was on October 2011 (6 years later after getting the implants), I had them removed. The cost was almost the same price to get them out as it was to put them in, but it was the best decision I ever made. Like I said, I did my research, and I asked the plastic surgeon to make sure he removed all the calcifications even if he had to take out healthy tissue causing disfigurement. I am happy to say, he did. When I was weight training and lost a significant amount of weight and my body mass index was extremely low, back in 2018-19, I could see the divots in the middle and lower chest area. You can’t see them now with the fat tissue.

After the surgery, I started to heal almost immediately. Within 2 to 3 weeks, I noticed things were changing, although very slowly. I felt, somehow, lighter. That cement feeling was starting to subside, and I could actually walk a bit faster. My strength started to return. I still recall doing some weeding in the yard of our new home on the Island (Vancouver Island). It was a lovely 3-acre lot. I recall pulling on some large brambles trying to get rid of it’s hold in the soil, and I started to shed tears. They were tears of joy. I said to my husband, at the time, that I couldn’t do this just 4 months ago. Each day and each week, I continued to get better – my energy level increasing little by little…. Overall, it took some time – about 18-24 months before I could say that I felt “almost normal”. The trouble I currently have, is that when I get overly stressed or put in too many hours at work, I start feeling that lethargy and some mild symptoms come back. But then, who doesn’t feel fatigued with too much stress! I couldn’t image where I would be with my health and life if I listened to the physicians and didn’t remove the breast implants, because back in 2011, I literally felt like I was dying! The divinemessage through meditation saved my life.

Of course, we will never know for certain if my symptoms were caused by the implants because I wasn’t a case study researched in a controlled environment. However, in 2019, a report came out stating that the biocell textured silicone breast implants made by Allergan were pulled from sale in Canada due to the risk of a type of non-Hodgkin lymphoma among patients with macro-textured breast implants. This report came out eight years after I removed my breast implants. I was one of the lucky ones. Other women shared their stories, and they were incapacitated by severe symptoms. Who knew meditation could show me the way and cause a miracle such as this!

It's amazing what meditation can do for you – not only to understand yourself but the world around you. What messages will you follow through on when you hear the voice. If you are in midlife, it is time to awaken through meditation. Don’t wait. I encourage you to start, no matter how short the practice is in the beginning to gain a greater understanding of yourself and the world around you. Trust that you will receive miracles. They happen.