This post is straight talk. It's brief. It doesn't go into a great amount of detail in regard to the various topics, but it is real and raw about the system we live in. There are also a lot of f-bombs being dropped here. If you can't stomach that, then stop here and move on!
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As the world gets more complex with new technology and new gadgets to wear, like the Oura Smart Ring Generation 3, I'm working on simplifying my life. I don't know if it is my age, the generation, or the post-pandemic residuals, but I am finding that I am making different choices.
It really comes down to, what the f*c* makes me happy in the most simplest way possible. For decades, I struggled in life due to developmental and sexual trauma. Then I went to therapy for ten years and then I went to school . . . for years - certifications in counselling, yoga, and fitness, certifications in metaphysical ministering and mysticism, an associate degree in psychology, certifications in two coaching programs, a nursing undergraduate degree, and a masters degree . . . and yet with all this experience and education . . . sure education has increased analytical thinking, allowed me to see various perspectives, and gave me the knowledge and understanding about evidence-based research . . . I am totally unsatisfied with my life!
Just a side note: And I still have to get interviewed by some twenty something year old recruiter that has no f**k*** clue about life or how to take an interview questioning my integrity. Just consider this. When you apply to Fraser Health Authority in the province of British Columbia, you have about three recruiters for the entire Health Authority. You get on their bad side by not sucking up in the interview or even ask a question that may show your assertiveness and you're screwed. There is no more interview for you. Recruiters (who have no education in health) are the gatekeepers. I believe, with the entire Vancouver Island Health Authority, they have two recruiters. It's a f**k*** joke how this world works now. We are slaves to the systems cowing down to f**king recruiters to get a job. One wrong move and you're f**k*** out!
Anyway, it was during my undergraduate academic studies I realized this - the real archaic, corrupt, indoctrinating systems. The more you sucked up to the teachers, the more they liked you. The more they liked you, the better you were treated and the more leeway they would give you. On the other hand, the more you spoke out, the more resistance there was. You were called difficult, aggressive, and hostile. What they were looking for was for you to comply with the implicit (and explicit) rules of the educational system - learn what they teach and keep your mouth shut. This makes life easy for them, certainly. They don't want students to rock the boat or question what they are teaching and how they are teaching it, and neither do they want instructors questioning the system. (Undoubtedly, this is a very simplified explanation, but it gives you a little bit of a picture).
What's truly sad about this is that I am not sure if I really thought about my future so far in advance and what I would be doing. I spent so much time healing my pain to adjust my behavior and educating myself figuring that perhaps working at a job (also indoctrinated by parents) would show my potential, commitment, dedication, and loyalty to a company where they may just respect all the effort I put in, but I realized that doing life this way (getting a job and working for someone else), my future was dependent on the decisions of that one person. What happens if I spoke my mind about a project or a teaching modality, or disagreed with something and this intimidated (etc.) this individual, or someone spoke against me and they simply believed them and not me? This one person could change the direction of my future. How could I even think this way? My future dependent on someone else. Is that what we all do: go to school to get a degree or trade, work for a company, and when we are in our late 50's and 60's, they find a reason to let us go and all our training and hard work amounted to nothing? We are left unemployed and penniless and our self-esteem at the bottom of the bay?
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After, I completed my masters degree, wow, was I in for a slap in the face. No matter what educational level you are at, it feels like you are constantly pleading for a job. "Please, please hire me!" with their three or four f**k*** part of an interview! F**king unreal! It's like you are becoming this brown nosing, weak, pathetic ass and your self-esteem is shot to hell. As well, with a job, it is implied that working overtime is okay and expected. The problem with this is that some companies may pay for overtime, while other companies simply expect overtime for free. I know now through interviews and stories, for example, that teachers grade assignments and prep for the week or each day on their own time. What the f**k generation started this?! Are you okay working for free? And, sometimes I even hear people say "I don't mind." That's the f**k*** problem. Canadians tolerate too much s***! We are such f**k*** wusses.
My entire perspective went from a mid-left wing Liberal to a right wing Conservative. It was like I was asleep for the last two and a half years and more. I woke up to a new dictionary of pronouns, and I woke up to hearing a group of people say that they didn't want to use the terms male or female anymore. This is misogynistic at it's finest and some people can't even f**k*** see this! If you have a vagina, you are a f**k*** female and if you have a penis, you are a f**k*** male. Simple! In an autopsy, your bones will disclose what gender you are. Perhaps we should give it a go now and do some sample testing to be sure! We have idiots that do not understand basic biology and who are convincing educators and politicians with the woe is me attitude and the left is falling for this.
I started meditating again earlier this year. I made a commitment to meditate everyday because what I was doing wasn't working anymore, as you can see; there was something wrong. With meditation, I started to ask deeper questions, questions that challenged my concepts of truth, and things started to dramatically change inside of me.
I tolerated. I bit my tongue. I sympathized. I listened! And, at one time, I thought this was a good thing because so many people indoctrinated me over the years by telling me that it was a good thing to empathize and be tolerant, but, I've come to realize with a rude awaking that it's not because there are some people that are just f**k*** ignorant (and they need to be told or educated). They, actually, believe that all of their thoughts and emotions are their truth. That's a sad f**k*** situation when you believe that all of your thoughts and feelings are your truth! Where is the f**k*** critical analysis? Where is the research? Don't believe everything you think, feel, or see. It's not all about f**k*** you.
So simplifying my life is about showing up and standing up for what is morally right when North Americans (not the world) are going f**k*** crazy which is creating a lot of chaos and mass confusion! It will be a pretty sad and pathetic state for the next generation of children growing up with this new sick and ill-willed indoctrination.
Simplifying is also about minimalism, being in nature, spending time with family - children, grandchildren - and working toward being independent from these systems that dictate how you should be and what you should think.
Photo by Sarah Dorweiler
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