Make Peace With Your Past
Wake Up to Live with Desiree Leigh
I bled all my life up until I was in my early 40's. My choices, my emotions, and my behavior were all stained by the wounds of my past. Food, alcohol, and drugs were all a part of my choices to drown the hurt and the pain, but, eventually, I realized that none of these delusional bandages worked. Besides, my children were getting older and they started speaking the truth to my face; that's quite a rude awakening when you want to stay in denial. It was not only denial that kept me in the dark, though. I didn't want to feel the pain again, and I knew this was exactly where I had to go. Eventually, I did go back to feel that pain. It was bloody hard! but the biggest reason I went back was for my children, pure and simple, and a little bit for myself.
In order to go back and make peace with your past, you need a reason--a BIG reason to want to heal the pain of your past. This big reason will also help you endure the healing process. Whenever I wanted to give up, whenever it felt like I couldn't endure the pain anymore, I went back to the thoughts of my children and how I wanted to be as a mom.